I've been bitten

I wanna call her, text her, somethin' but I just can't!! I'm about to burst! I haven't felt this way in a long time. Maybe it's just a phase, who knows... I don't think it is. How many phases can you go through in a lifetime. Aren't those for teenagers who hate their parents? Ah well, only time will tell us the answer. All I can do now is produce this and look back on it years from now and either say I told ya so, or what the hell was I thinking! lol

These are just inner thoughts, but for some reason I felt the need to get them out of me. When I could have my way I had to find another way, and this was the best avenue... hmm, who would have ever thunk it? Besides, I hating writing. But as I've always said, my bestest friends are the ones whom I've had a period of hate, or should I say dislike for... Well that's kinda harsh, let's just say they got on my damn nerves! Let's take my best friend of all, my other half, the female version of me, the dancer, my sister.... I remember wanting to disown her ass... lol I guess the more I wanted you gone and the more you stayed the closer we got... So to all of the ones I call friend, thanks for stickin it out and gettin on my nerves! lol

Back to......... oops almost gave it away, There's a little thing called confidentiality that I almost broke. Besides lots of eyes may find this, I can't control that.... well technically I could, but I've never been one to hold my tongue. Imma say what I gotta say like it or not, and always stand behind it. If I'm wrong I admit it, either way I go on with life... ppl dwell to much on stupid shit. If I have an issue with you, I'll just tell you, hopefully we can come to an understanding... either way I'm not gon' change how I'd normally act, we still cool regardless unless you just have no care or concern whatsoever. oh but, I was talkin about her.... I just..... I wish I could..... :) ??? i'm speechless, which is silly cuz I'm typing. You know how when you're thinking, but you can still hear yourself talking in your head? or am I the only one? maybe not yourself, but you hear the words. Is it correct to say your hear your thoughts? hmm, makes you wonder.... but some how I miss her, just want to hear her voice... see her smile... Can't stop thinking, I've been bitten, but shhhh..... that's b/w you and me......

whew! i feel better now, that should get me through the night, lol