Gimme the ball coach, I want the pressure!!

Hello, It's me Talton.

The time of my last blog was... lol sounds like I'm at confession... hmm which reminds me I haven't been to one of those since grade school! We catholics are supposed to go once a year. I think the only ppl that do are school kids and the elderly. That's even if the schools still make the kiddies go.

Well lots of things are going on with me, as usual. For the most part all is well. Keeping my head above water. Brother got bills, and with an inconsistent work schedule my lifestyle tends to exceed my means... but hey I'll try not to stress too much. God has made a way for me to survive and somehow he keeps coming through!! The devil is playing his part too... every good movie has it's twists. If the protagonist (the hero) doesn't have any obstacles to overcome then you'd have a really boring movie!

Sometimes you have those moments where as Chrisette Michele would say, "It just came to me, like an epiphany!"
Well I'm still waiting for that moment... Lol, not really... Sometimes I feel like I'm spreading myself to thin and not focusing on one thing. Which can be true in some cases. I'm rapidly approaching the age of 25! Scary folks, very Scary! It's not because I think I'm an "old person" it's just I haven't accomplished the things I'd planned b4 30 yet... I don't wanna be a 40 year old still trying to find a career! I feel like that's the path I'm on. Sure I went to college and graduated, but it's not enough. In a sense, ppl that didn't go to college and only high school sort of have it better. Nowadays, I'm either over qualified and over looked or under experience and under schooled.
My head is still held high though! I have some short term goals to meet, errors to correct, lessons to learn. Taking more control and responsibility for my actions.

When I step back and look at my family and the ppl around me, I notice singers, songwriters, dancers and so on. I'm surrounded with ppl in the Arts. I, myself have talents as well that I have put off to the side. Well maybe the was a huge mistake. Here lately I've been spending alot of my free time messing around with different mixing and editing software. I've even given myself a DJ name, lol.... Even been researching some schools in the field. I hate to sound like I'm being held back and I'd love to go to this one school I've picked out, but I have this huge burden on my shoulders, (well at least to me) which is holding me down. No I don't have any kids are anything like that!! lol,
The question today is not Do I want to? it's How will I?
The answer:
Coming Soon to a blog near you! Lol

Question/Comment of the day...

Here's my comment for the day:

So I'm taking part in a very historical day yesterday with the inauguration of the 44th President of the U.S. and the 1st African American male to hold this position. A lot of people say that they never thought they'd live to see the day. I don't know that I agree. Strangely enough it didn't seem that far fetched to me, but then again my mind is very warped. Anyhow i'm saying all of this to get to my comment. Now don't get me wrong, I feel very bad about what happened to Sen. Kennedy at the luncheon. I truly hopes he recovers to working form and continues to be a productive citizen as he has been. However, I got very fed up with the media and how they kept having to get the update on him. Every 15 min or so. They even cut Russell Simmons' interview short so they could get the scoop on the Senator. Russell is trying to express his thoughts and feelings about the President's day and all they want to do is get side tracked. By this time Kennedy was in the hospital laughing and joking around. Stop diverting the attention and stay focused on Obama. He deserves to have all the attention. Oh and did anyone else see that Antawn Fisher lookin boy at the beginning when they showed that sailor dude? lol

Xmas Survey

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? The joy of unwrapping a gift is half the fun!

2. Real tree or Artificial? Real

3. When do you put up the tree? Not too long after Thanksgiving...

4. When do you take the tree down? When that puppy is good and dead!

5. Do you like eggnog? Does it have rum in it? ;)

6. Favorite gift received as a child? my drumset,

7. Hardest person to buy for? My Mother,

8. Easiest person to buy for? My youngest sister,

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Mail, email still tends to be so impersonal.

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? Some tube socks

12. Favorite Christmas Movie? Home Alone

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? When the funds are right!

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? hmm... nah

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Gumbo

16. Lights on the tree? yes and anything Purple and gold that pref has a Tiger on it ;)

17. Favorite Christmas song?rThis Christmas... the original! Chris Breezy's ver is nice too though.

18. Travel at Christmas or stay at home? This particular xmas I wish I could travel!!

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Well there's Dasher and Dancer and Prancer and Vixzen, Comet and Cupid and Donner and Blitzen... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh but do you recall? The most famous reindeer of all.............................................RUDOLPH!!! THE RED NOSE REINDEER, u know the one with the very shiny nose. If u ever saw him, u'd even say it glows. Can u believe all the other reindeer used to laugh and call him names? They never let poor old Rudolph join in any reindeer games. Then one foggy xmas eve, Santa came by and said "HEY RUDOLPH, with your nose SO bright... plz oh plz guide my sleigh tonight!" So then all the reindeer was on his jock, they shouted out with glee! They were like man that boy Rudolph is gonna go down in history!!

-but um, yea I think I can name em all, lol

20. Angel on the tree top or a star? gotta have that star on top baby,

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Xmas Morning.. if not I would never wake up that damn early, lol

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? Long lines everywhere!

23. What theme or color are you using? of i think i'll try Purple and gold for the very first time... would u believe I've never done that... ok ok fine i have,

24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? Basically the same thing we had for Thanksgiving...

25. What do you want for Christmas this year? I already have it, and she's the best a man can get! (besides a gillette, lol)

Cool down

Okay, I know I've been a little deeper than usual these last couple of blogs. Let's just say, if u didn't understand then it wasn't meant for you to.

Hmm, I at work now... just kinda here really... the computer does the work, I just make sure the right buttons are pushed, lol

What shall I talk about? Everything is pretty much quiet with me right about now. When I say quiet I mean good! and on the rise, Even though I am dealing with some personal issues, nothing major. Just take it from me, anything you do in life is your choice and your choice only. You have to live for you because in the end, your decisions should make you happy. Would you rather make choices to please someone else and end up miserable or please yourself? All I can say is, accept advice wisely, but ultimately your decisions should be your own. In the end, you only know what's best for you!

Some things that were clear have fogged up again, don't know why, but they're starting to kinda clear up again... life is such a 5 letter word that rhymes with itch...

I think the biggest lesson I've learned this month is that there are no shortcuts... shortcuts only lead you right back to the beginning again, This applies to every aspect of life, whether it be relationships, school, jobs, religion, anything... Take the time and put in the work, and only then will you be happy with the results!

Well back to work i go ;)

Hilton vs. Marriot

So you're looking to change hotels I see. What's that, maybe? Well here's what the Hilton has to offer that the Marriot just can't live up to.

-Not only are the rates better, but you also get more "bang for your buck".

-The rooms here are much nicer and have far better views. Think of that river view at sunset, calm, peaceful, and serene. Gives you a feeling that you have no worries and can just kick back and relax. Put your feet up, let your hair down, just chill!

-Our Service here is far more superior! From the moment you step foot, you're pampered with nothing but the highest level of service. All you have to do is step out of the limo that was sent to the airport to pick you up, follow the red carpet to the front desk, and get your keys. Everything else will be taken care of. Lifting a finger is not allow here. So try not to let it happen.

-The Hilton is far more loyal as well. Our guest are not just any guest. Here you will be part of the family. This is your home away from home. Don't worry about being abandoned or left behind and forgotten about.

-The Hilton is a great variety. Not only is it designed for the modern traveler, it also has a rich history of tradition and gives it that solid foundation that separates the good hotels from the great ones. You can take a swim in one of our nicely heated pools, or even hop in one of our perfectly tempered jacuzzies. Feeling like a workout? Visit our top of the line workout facility equipped with the best equipment in existence. Need that extra push? Have one of our on-site personal trainers take you under their wing. (No purchase necessary)

So in short, The Hilton is the biggest upgrade you could ever make in your life, and don't worry this offer will never expire so take your time and decide what's best and remember with the Hilton you're our family for a lifetime!










(Hotel descriptions described above do not reflect actual hotel properties and were used for metaphorical purposes only)

Addictive

It's addictive isn't it,
Why do you return? How could you?
Months and Months of rehab, and all it takes is one taste and you're relapsed.
What is it about this drug? Why does it have such a hold on you? Why does it control your life? Don't you realize that it's a one way street. It never comes to you, yet you still seek it. What is it about this drug? Why does it have such an easy control over you? Why do you seek it even when the supply is gone? What about it is so comforting? How can you hold on to that comfort after it's been proven otherwise? What makes it hard to change? Months and months of rehab and all it takes is one taste? Must be a hell of a drug. How much does it cost? How long does it last? What do you get in return? What will you lose? Must be a hell of a drug.
I can't just stand here and watch you continue to abuse this drug. I can help you, but you have to want to be helped. If not then I'm just wasting my time. I've been there once, addicted. Once it's gone you can never get that same high again. You try and try, but you fall harder and harder. I don't want you to fall as hard as I did. Let me help you, give me your hand. Let me show you a life without drugs. Let me show you how to achieve that natural high! I can show you, let me show you!
Addictive ain't it?

What is this?

My world is starting to slow down! I'm been moving at such warp speed and suddenly it's as if someone has pushed the emergency brakes... What has been going on? Why is there such chaos? I've been at light speed so long I couldn't have noticed the things that maybe I could have helped prevent. Or maybe it's just things changed as they would have if I was there or not. The only problem with that is, I didn't get to change with them. So now i'm stuck, how to I catch up? I just want everything to be like it was. Everyone was so close, there was an err of togetherness. Nowadays, it's every man for themselves.

Why now though? Why not just continue at warp speed? Why do I have to witness this? Is there something I can do? Can anyone do anything? Maybe it's not all bad. Well it really isn't all that bad. Just not the same. Why am I back here anyway? I said I wasn't coming back, so why am I here? These are a lot of questions aren't they. Do I really need the answers? Maybe I already know the answers. Am I afraid to admit I know? or do I really not know? Why is the picture so blurry? Am I still moving too fast? If I slow down more will the blurriness fade. That seems to be true, Some call it soul searching. I don't think that's it. I know who I am, and what I want to do. So I am not soul searching.

Why do I feel this burden? Why is family so important to me and not my family? Or is it? Why do I care more? or do I? Why do I feel the weight on my shoulders? is it? Am I spreading myself to thin? Maybe I need to redistribute my energy. Maybe I will. I am back here for a reason though. Why is that? I know I will be gone again, so why am I back? Why did I leave? Something told me to stay, but I felt I should leave... what's drawing me here? What do you want from me? I just want to be happy. I know where my happiness is. Do I care too much for others and not enough for myself? I can't save the world, but I can make it a better place. Am I just ranting and raving? or is this something that's flowing out of me? I've been typing alot, but have I even said anything? Does this make sense? Maybe only to me. Guess if you ask me tomorrow I won't even know why I felt like this. So is this a waste? ??? that's it, I've lost the flow. It's gone now, so I guess this is the end!