1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? The joy of unwrapping a gift is half the fun!
2. Real tree or Artificial? Real
3. When do you put up the tree? Not too long after Thanksgiving...
4. When do you take the tree down? When that puppy is good and dead!
5. Do you like eggnog? Does it have rum in it? ;)
6. Favorite gift received as a child? my drumset,
7. Hardest person to buy for? My Mother,
8. Easiest person to buy for? My youngest sister,
10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Mail, email still tends to be so impersonal.
11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? Some tube socks
12. Favorite Christmas Movie? Home Alone
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? When the funds are right!
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? hmm... nah
15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Gumbo
16. Lights on the tree? yes and anything Purple and gold that pref has a Tiger on it ;)
17. Favorite Christmas song?rThis Christmas... the original! Chris Breezy's ver is nice too though.
18. Travel at Christmas or stay at home? This particular xmas I wish I could travel!!
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Well there's Dasher and Dancer and Prancer and Vixzen, Comet and Cupid and Donner and Blitzen... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh but do you recall? The most famous reindeer of all.............................................RUDOLPH!!! THE RED NOSE REINDEER, u know the one with the very shiny nose. If u ever saw him, u'd even say it glows. Can u believe all the other reindeer used to laugh and call him names? They never let poor old Rudolph join in any reindeer games. Then one foggy xmas eve, Santa came by and said "HEY RUDOLPH, with your nose SO bright... plz oh plz guide my sleigh tonight!" So then all the reindeer was on his jock, they shouted out with glee! They were like man that boy Rudolph is gonna go down in history!!
-but um, yea I think I can name em all, lol
20. Angel on the tree top or a star? gotta have that star on top baby,
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Xmas Morning.. if not I would never wake up that damn early, lol
22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? Long lines everywhere!
23. What theme or color are you using? of i think i'll try Purple and gold for the very first time... would u believe I've never done that... ok ok fine i have,
24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? Basically the same thing we had for Thanksgiving...
25. What do you want for Christmas this year? I already have it, and she's the best a man can get! (besides a gillette, lol)
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Cool down
Okay, I know I've been a little deeper than usual these last couple of blogs. Let's just say, if u didn't understand then it wasn't meant for you to.
Hmm, I at work now... just kinda here really... the computer does the work, I just make sure the right buttons are pushed, lol
What shall I talk about? Everything is pretty much quiet with me right about now. When I say quiet I mean good! and on the rise, Even though I am dealing with some personal issues, nothing major. Just take it from me, anything you do in life is your choice and your choice only. You have to live for you because in the end, your decisions should make you happy. Would you rather make choices to please someone else and end up miserable or please yourself? All I can say is, accept advice wisely, but ultimately your decisions should be your own. In the end, you only know what's best for you!
Some things that were clear have fogged up again, don't know why, but they're starting to kinda clear up again... life is such a 5 letter word that rhymes with itch...
I think the biggest lesson I've learned this month is that there are no shortcuts... shortcuts only lead you right back to the beginning again, This applies to every aspect of life, whether it be relationships, school, jobs, religion, anything... Take the time and put in the work, and only then will you be happy with the results!
Well back to work i go ;)
Hmm, I at work now... just kinda here really... the computer does the work, I just make sure the right buttons are pushed, lol
What shall I talk about? Everything is pretty much quiet with me right about now. When I say quiet I mean good! and on the rise, Even though I am dealing with some personal issues, nothing major. Just take it from me, anything you do in life is your choice and your choice only. You have to live for you because in the end, your decisions should make you happy. Would you rather make choices to please someone else and end up miserable or please yourself? All I can say is, accept advice wisely, but ultimately your decisions should be your own. In the end, you only know what's best for you!
Some things that were clear have fogged up again, don't know why, but they're starting to kinda clear up again... life is such a 5 letter word that rhymes with itch...
I think the biggest lesson I've learned this month is that there are no shortcuts... shortcuts only lead you right back to the beginning again, This applies to every aspect of life, whether it be relationships, school, jobs, religion, anything... Take the time and put in the work, and only then will you be happy with the results!
Well back to work i go ;)
Monday, October 20, 2008
Hilton vs. Marriot
So you're looking to change hotels I see. What's that, maybe? Well here's what the Hilton has to offer that the Marriot just can't live up to.
-Not only are the rates better, but you also get more "bang for your buck".
-The rooms here are much nicer and have far better views. Think of that river view at sunset, calm, peaceful, and serene. Gives you a feeling that you have no worries and can just kick back and relax. Put your feet up, let your hair down, just chill!
-Our Service here is far more superior! From the moment you step foot, you're pampered with nothing but the highest level of service. All you have to do is step out of the limo that was sent to the airport to pick you up, follow the red carpet to the front desk, and get your keys. Everything else will be taken care of. Lifting a finger is not allow here. So try not to let it happen.
-The Hilton is far more loyal as well. Our guest are not just any guest. Here you will be part of the family. This is your home away from home. Don't worry about being abandoned or left behind and forgotten about.
-The Hilton is a great variety. Not only is it designed for the modern traveler, it also has a rich history of tradition and gives it that solid foundation that separates the good hotels from the great ones. You can take a swim in one of our nicely heated pools, or even hop in one of our perfectly tempered jacuzzies. Feeling like a workout? Visit our top of the line workout facility equipped with the best equipment in existence. Need that extra push? Have one of our on-site personal trainers take you under their wing. (No purchase necessary)
So in short, The Hilton is the biggest upgrade you could ever make in your life, and don't worry this offer will never expire so take your time and decide what's best and remember with the Hilton you're our family for a lifetime!
(Hotel descriptions described above do not reflect actual hotel properties and were used for metaphorical purposes only)
-Not only are the rates better, but you also get more "bang for your buck".
-The rooms here are much nicer and have far better views. Think of that river view at sunset, calm, peaceful, and serene. Gives you a feeling that you have no worries and can just kick back and relax. Put your feet up, let your hair down, just chill!
-Our Service here is far more superior! From the moment you step foot, you're pampered with nothing but the highest level of service. All you have to do is step out of the limo that was sent to the airport to pick you up, follow the red carpet to the front desk, and get your keys. Everything else will be taken care of. Lifting a finger is not allow here. So try not to let it happen.
-The Hilton is far more loyal as well. Our guest are not just any guest. Here you will be part of the family. This is your home away from home. Don't worry about being abandoned or left behind and forgotten about.
-The Hilton is a great variety. Not only is it designed for the modern traveler, it also has a rich history of tradition and gives it that solid foundation that separates the good hotels from the great ones. You can take a swim in one of our nicely heated pools, or even hop in one of our perfectly tempered jacuzzies. Feeling like a workout? Visit our top of the line workout facility equipped with the best equipment in existence. Need that extra push? Have one of our on-site personal trainers take you under their wing. (No purchase necessary)
So in short, The Hilton is the biggest upgrade you could ever make in your life, and don't worry this offer will never expire so take your time and decide what's best and remember with the Hilton you're our family for a lifetime!
(Hotel descriptions described above do not reflect actual hotel properties and were used for metaphorical purposes only)
Addictive
It's addictive isn't it,
Why do you return? How could you?
Months and Months of rehab, and all it takes is one taste and you're relapsed.
What is it about this drug? Why does it have such a hold on you? Why does it control your life? Don't you realize that it's a one way street. It never comes to you, yet you still seek it. What is it about this drug? Why does it have such an easy control over you? Why do you seek it even when the supply is gone? What about it is so comforting? How can you hold on to that comfort after it's been proven otherwise? What makes it hard to change? Months and months of rehab and all it takes is one taste? Must be a hell of a drug. How much does it cost? How long does it last? What do you get in return? What will you lose? Must be a hell of a drug.
I can't just stand here and watch you continue to abuse this drug. I can help you, but you have to want to be helped. If not then I'm just wasting my time. I've been there once, addicted. Once it's gone you can never get that same high again. You try and try, but you fall harder and harder. I don't want you to fall as hard as I did. Let me help you, give me your hand. Let me show you a life without drugs. Let me show you how to achieve that natural high! I can show you, let me show you!
Addictive ain't it?
Why do you return? How could you?
Months and Months of rehab, and all it takes is one taste and you're relapsed.
What is it about this drug? Why does it have such a hold on you? Why does it control your life? Don't you realize that it's a one way street. It never comes to you, yet you still seek it. What is it about this drug? Why does it have such an easy control over you? Why do you seek it even when the supply is gone? What about it is so comforting? How can you hold on to that comfort after it's been proven otherwise? What makes it hard to change? Months and months of rehab and all it takes is one taste? Must be a hell of a drug. How much does it cost? How long does it last? What do you get in return? What will you lose? Must be a hell of a drug.
I can't just stand here and watch you continue to abuse this drug. I can help you, but you have to want to be helped. If not then I'm just wasting my time. I've been there once, addicted. Once it's gone you can never get that same high again. You try and try, but you fall harder and harder. I don't want you to fall as hard as I did. Let me help you, give me your hand. Let me show you a life without drugs. Let me show you how to achieve that natural high! I can show you, let me show you!
Addictive ain't it?
Sunday, October 5, 2008
What is this?
My world is starting to slow down! I'm been moving at such warp speed and suddenly it's as if someone has pushed the emergency brakes... What has been going on? Why is there such chaos? I've been at light speed so long I couldn't have noticed the things that maybe I could have helped prevent. Or maybe it's just things changed as they would have if I was there or not. The only problem with that is, I didn't get to change with them. So now i'm stuck, how to I catch up? I just want everything to be like it was. Everyone was so close, there was an err of togetherness. Nowadays, it's every man for themselves.
Why now though? Why not just continue at warp speed? Why do I have to witness this? Is there something I can do? Can anyone do anything? Maybe it's not all bad. Well it really isn't all that bad. Just not the same. Why am I back here anyway? I said I wasn't coming back, so why am I here? These are a lot of questions aren't they. Do I really need the answers? Maybe I already know the answers. Am I afraid to admit I know? or do I really not know? Why is the picture so blurry? Am I still moving too fast? If I slow down more will the blurriness fade. That seems to be true, Some call it soul searching. I don't think that's it. I know who I am, and what I want to do. So I am not soul searching.
Why do I feel this burden? Why is family so important to me and not my family? Or is it? Why do I care more? or do I? Why do I feel the weight on my shoulders? is it? Am I spreading myself to thin? Maybe I need to redistribute my energy. Maybe I will. I am back here for a reason though. Why is that? I know I will be gone again, so why am I back? Why did I leave? Something told me to stay, but I felt I should leave... what's drawing me here? What do you want from me? I just want to be happy. I know where my happiness is. Do I care too much for others and not enough for myself? I can't save the world, but I can make it a better place. Am I just ranting and raving? or is this something that's flowing out of me? I've been typing alot, but have I even said anything? Does this make sense? Maybe only to me. Guess if you ask me tomorrow I won't even know why I felt like this. So is this a waste? ??? that's it, I've lost the flow. It's gone now, so I guess this is the end!
Why now though? Why not just continue at warp speed? Why do I have to witness this? Is there something I can do? Can anyone do anything? Maybe it's not all bad. Well it really isn't all that bad. Just not the same. Why am I back here anyway? I said I wasn't coming back, so why am I here? These are a lot of questions aren't they. Do I really need the answers? Maybe I already know the answers. Am I afraid to admit I know? or do I really not know? Why is the picture so blurry? Am I still moving too fast? If I slow down more will the blurriness fade. That seems to be true, Some call it soul searching. I don't think that's it. I know who I am, and what I want to do. So I am not soul searching.
Why do I feel this burden? Why is family so important to me and not my family? Or is it? Why do I care more? or do I? Why do I feel the weight on my shoulders? is it? Am I spreading myself to thin? Maybe I need to redistribute my energy. Maybe I will. I am back here for a reason though. Why is that? I know I will be gone again, so why am I back? Why did I leave? Something told me to stay, but I felt I should leave... what's drawing me here? What do you want from me? I just want to be happy. I know where my happiness is. Do I care too much for others and not enough for myself? I can't save the world, but I can make it a better place. Am I just ranting and raving? or is this something that's flowing out of me? I've been typing alot, but have I even said anything? Does this make sense? Maybe only to me. Guess if you ask me tomorrow I won't even know why I felt like this. So is this a waste? ??? that's it, I've lost the flow. It's gone now, so I guess this is the end!
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Whatever happened to? 2nd edition
ok, lemme get deep right quick... Another edition of:
Whatever happened to?
... to love at first sight?
... to wedlock?
I gotta explain that one, remember the days when a girl would tell her parents, "I'm pregnant" and before she could finish the word pregnant her father had done already drove to the boy's house with a shotgun, brought him back and basically forced a marriage to happen right then and there. I mean back in the day, for better or for worse meant, for better or for worse. People stood married, even if they hated the situation... most of the time because it was out of wedlock, lol. But, can we even use the term Wedlock anymore?!? Doesn't seem to me like there's much of a use for that word... if there was, don't think you'd see so many baby mama's and the like. Not saying wedlock is good, but hey it would also make you think before you act and put yourself in that situation. America is gettin too lax. Society in general is too lax... it's like soceity is gettin old. Does anyone remember when the word Sex was like a word that ppl wouldn't say out loud. Birth control was considered wrong, the word family = Father+ Mother + plus kids+ community... I mean yea, some things were a little too unaccepted, but with the acceptance of 1 came the snowball effect of the rest. ooo sociecty can be pursuaded, if you bagger it enough anything can be accepted... Tobacco and Alcohol used to be banned... remember that? I don't lol, but it's clear in movies like Life where they had underground bars that u had to know the secret password to and stuff like that.... Now society has to beg ppl to quit smoking and has finally gotten a ban on smoking on indoors. Here lately we're talkin about legalizing marijuana and even dropping the drinking age... ??? We're even allowing same sex marriages these days... The new movement, Gay Rights.... everyone has there swing at soceity these days... Just form a group and make some noise!!! you'll get Whatever you like, like T.I. say.... Just to clarify, my views on Gays are based upon my religious beliefs, just plain wrong... however, I do no judge anyone... that isn't my job, that's for God himself to decide. I really don't know if a person is born that way or if it's a choice they've made.... ??? don't know, and that's a whole nother' blog.... back to soceity... It's falling ppl! but that's enough explaining.....
to .99 cent gas? Remember when 1.09 was too high? It's like a game... let's raise gas to 4 dollars and then bring it back to 3.58 and keep it there. That'll seem better than 4 and ppl will be content. We attack society so much, but as a society we accept too much. I don't understand how a small portion of society can bully the greater, collective society, but on the flip side, the society as a whole cannot stop a smaller segment of itself.... that baffles me! Kinda like how those idiots in the Child's Play movies let that damn Chucky doll kill them!! It's a freakin little toy kick the shit out of it!! A little doll with a knife ain't gon' stab me to death, i'm sorry.... lol that's funny... anyhow
to for better or for worse?
I had to come back to this... I think they should drop the for worse part because a 50% divorce rate is telling me that half of the American population I guess didn't hear or doesn't listen to that part of the marriage vows. Let's just drop it... Drop it like it's hot!! Let's just say to have and to hold for better or if not get divorced.... may as well. Don't like your job... quit. Don't like your weight... have surgery. Don't wanna be pregnant... abort. Don't wanna be a man anymore... get a sex change. Don't want your kid to be short... select the genes u want. Don't wanna be bald.... hair club for men/women. Everything has to be for better.... I mean don't get me wrong, some of these things are good to have... but the things we should be focused on making better we're far from doing and the things that only require a little work and effort to turn from bad to good we've just found another quick fix. I.e. instead of therapy/ get a divorce... instead of workin out and dieting correctly/get lipo...
I had planned on just making a list of questions, but I ended up having an opinion for each of em, lol so I'll save the rest for the next edition of Whatever happened to?
Whatever happened to?
... to love at first sight?
... to wedlock?
I gotta explain that one, remember the days when a girl would tell her parents, "I'm pregnant" and before she could finish the word pregnant her father had done already drove to the boy's house with a shotgun, brought him back and basically forced a marriage to happen right then and there. I mean back in the day, for better or for worse meant, for better or for worse. People stood married, even if they hated the situation... most of the time because it was out of wedlock, lol. But, can we even use the term Wedlock anymore?!? Doesn't seem to me like there's much of a use for that word... if there was, don't think you'd see so many baby mama's and the like. Not saying wedlock is good, but hey it would also make you think before you act and put yourself in that situation. America is gettin too lax. Society in general is too lax... it's like soceity is gettin old. Does anyone remember when the word Sex was like a word that ppl wouldn't say out loud. Birth control was considered wrong, the word family = Father+ Mother + plus kids+ community... I mean yea, some things were a little too unaccepted, but with the acceptance of 1 came the snowball effect of the rest. ooo sociecty can be pursuaded, if you bagger it enough anything can be accepted... Tobacco and Alcohol used to be banned... remember that? I don't lol, but it's clear in movies like Life where they had underground bars that u had to know the secret password to and stuff like that.... Now society has to beg ppl to quit smoking and has finally gotten a ban on smoking on indoors. Here lately we're talkin about legalizing marijuana and even dropping the drinking age... ??? We're even allowing same sex marriages these days... The new movement, Gay Rights.... everyone has there swing at soceity these days... Just form a group and make some noise!!! you'll get Whatever you like, like T.I. say.... Just to clarify, my views on Gays are based upon my religious beliefs, just plain wrong... however, I do no judge anyone... that isn't my job, that's for God himself to decide. I really don't know if a person is born that way or if it's a choice they've made.... ??? don't know, and that's a whole nother' blog.... back to soceity... It's falling ppl! but that's enough explaining.....
to .99 cent gas? Remember when 1.09 was too high? It's like a game... let's raise gas to 4 dollars and then bring it back to 3.58 and keep it there. That'll seem better than 4 and ppl will be content. We attack society so much, but as a society we accept too much. I don't understand how a small portion of society can bully the greater, collective society, but on the flip side, the society as a whole cannot stop a smaller segment of itself.... that baffles me! Kinda like how those idiots in the Child's Play movies let that damn Chucky doll kill them!! It's a freakin little toy kick the shit out of it!! A little doll with a knife ain't gon' stab me to death, i'm sorry.... lol that's funny... anyhow
to for better or for worse?
I had to come back to this... I think they should drop the for worse part because a 50% divorce rate is telling me that half of the American population I guess didn't hear or doesn't listen to that part of the marriage vows. Let's just drop it... Drop it like it's hot!! Let's just say to have and to hold for better or if not get divorced.... may as well. Don't like your job... quit. Don't like your weight... have surgery. Don't wanna be pregnant... abort. Don't wanna be a man anymore... get a sex change. Don't want your kid to be short... select the genes u want. Don't wanna be bald.... hair club for men/women. Everything has to be for better.... I mean don't get me wrong, some of these things are good to have... but the things we should be focused on making better we're far from doing and the things that only require a little work and effort to turn from bad to good we've just found another quick fix. I.e. instead of therapy/ get a divorce... instead of workin out and dieting correctly/get lipo...
I had planned on just making a list of questions, but I ended up having an opinion for each of em, lol so I'll save the rest for the next edition of Whatever happened to?
Do a few apples really spoil the bunch?
You know what they say, 1 bad apple spoils the bunch... Well can we really translate that to anything? Well I just finished watching a conversation between Tavis Smiley and Evan Bayh, Senator from Indiana who was considered by Obama as a possible running mate. A couple of things that the Sen. spoke about kind of got me thinking. Well i guess enough to make me hop on the site and write on it... lol. Well we all know that there is an issue of race when it comes to the Presidental race. So Tavis asked the Sen. how much of an impact did he think the issue of race would have in Indiana, which is known to be a Red state ( or Republican). Currently, Obama is actually leading in the polls in Indiana and has a chance of acutally winning that state, which is about a 21% increase from the last presidental election.
Well the Senator explained that while it would be naive to say that race isn't an issue, it shouldn't be much of an impact. There's a small group of ppl, in his opinion that still "think like that".... and furthermore those ppl wouldn't vote for a Democrat anyhow. I kinda felt where he was coming from on that, I mean if you're racist you're racist. You gonna hate who you hate and anyone who may seem like they helping who you hate. But they're still the "bad apples" and with history being the way it is, it's hard to overcome that stigma as a race. it's so easy to blame a difference of opinion, or personality, or even dislike of someone on being racist. I mean ppl of the same race have these differences.
It's just too hard to tell, and especially coming from a race that has been oppressed in the past, the extreme excuse is going to be taken... it's just a natural defensive mechanism... If u have a group of 5 ppl, and the group always picked on this one person i'll name Joe. Naturally Joe isn't gonna like that group too much... However, 4 members of that group realize the error of there ways and have genuinely changed and would never pick on Joe the way they did before. I bet if the 4 were together and happen to run into Joe... even knowing that information... Joe isn't gonna really trust them fully. Trust issues... see that trust pops up in everything that is associated with the word "problem"....
We've come along way, but there are just too many bad apples, maybe the analogy is transferable...
But hey, that's just me... Speak on it,
the
Well the Senator explained that while it would be naive to say that race isn't an issue, it shouldn't be much of an impact. There's a small group of ppl, in his opinion that still "think like that".... and furthermore those ppl wouldn't vote for a Democrat anyhow. I kinda felt where he was coming from on that, I mean if you're racist you're racist. You gonna hate who you hate and anyone who may seem like they helping who you hate. But they're still the "bad apples" and with history being the way it is, it's hard to overcome that stigma as a race. it's so easy to blame a difference of opinion, or personality, or even dislike of someone on being racist. I mean ppl of the same race have these differences.
It's just too hard to tell, and especially coming from a race that has been oppressed in the past, the extreme excuse is going to be taken... it's just a natural defensive mechanism... If u have a group of 5 ppl, and the group always picked on this one person i'll name Joe. Naturally Joe isn't gonna like that group too much... However, 4 members of that group realize the error of there ways and have genuinely changed and would never pick on Joe the way they did before. I bet if the 4 were together and happen to run into Joe... even knowing that information... Joe isn't gonna really trust them fully. Trust issues... see that trust pops up in everything that is associated with the word "problem"....
We've come along way, but there are just too many bad apples, maybe the analogy is transferable...
But hey, that's just me... Speak on it,
the
Sunday, August 24, 2008
I'm Back!
I'm back!
Hey, that works on 2 levels....
The first being my return to Louisiana.... there's no place like home.... nah really there isn't. Especially the N.O.
The second is creatively. The past couple of weeks I don't think there was a creative bone in my body. I just felt so disoriented. I've only been back 2 weeks, but one small hurdle I had to get over was the fact that I'm not just visiting. Whenever I returned to N.O. in the past, my time was limited. Nowadays, I have no place to return to. That is a strange feeling, and you gotta feel it to understand it. Meanwhile, I just haven't been very creative. My creativeness is what sparks alot of my actions. The more creative i can be, the better I perform... pretty much. I think we got seperated somewhere between here and florida, but it has finally found its way back to me. I see alot of obstacles ahead of me, but with my creativeness back I can face anything thrown at me.
I'm Back!!
Hey, that works on 2 levels....
The first being my return to Louisiana.... there's no place like home.... nah really there isn't. Especially the N.O.
The second is creatively. The past couple of weeks I don't think there was a creative bone in my body. I just felt so disoriented. I've only been back 2 weeks, but one small hurdle I had to get over was the fact that I'm not just visiting. Whenever I returned to N.O. in the past, my time was limited. Nowadays, I have no place to return to. That is a strange feeling, and you gotta feel it to understand it. Meanwhile, I just haven't been very creative. My creativeness is what sparks alot of my actions. The more creative i can be, the better I perform... pretty much. I think we got seperated somewhere between here and florida, but it has finally found its way back to me. I see alot of obstacles ahead of me, but with my creativeness back I can face anything thrown at me.
I'm Back!!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
My Dreams....
Namaste!! ( means welcome)
... So I was on the phone right, and you know I'm just talkin, chit-chattin if you will and me and this person got on the subject of school and future careers; and I was like, there's a lot of things that I want to do. So, she was like, well what are they. I was stuck, then it hit me... I've never really talked out loud about all the things in my head that I want to do with my life. These things are still fairly new, but nonetheless I've never talked about them. So when she asked me that, I found myself not really being able to explain what it was. I mean sure, it makes total sense in my head, but when I said it out loud it was as if I wasn't confident in it or maybe even felt foolish. Like a little kid wanting to be a superhero, or an astronaut, or policeman... As if my dreams are too big!! So I've decided to take the first step and just get them all out of me. Not quite out loud, but out there in some form, I mean as I've already learned, my words can be very powerful... So here goes...
Well, let's start way back in High School,
I was destined to be an NBA star... :) just one problem, I was in the marching band throughout highschool, got to college, was like ooo i'll walk on. Took one look at the team, and headed for the library.... lol Hey, I could still pursue it, but prob very unlikely.... ok that's off my chest, lol
Nowadays, I don't feel like the things that pop into my head are my thoughts alone... I feel like there's someone telling me these things and ok let's back up, I feel like God is telling me all the things he wants me to do with my life, and basically it's up to me whether they get done or not...
Sounds weird? yes, no, maybe? Are u currently following your dreams? If so, did you hear the same voice? Let me know, cuz i'm tryin to figure this one out, :)
So what are they?
Well one day, I was sittin around thinkin and stuff and this idea for a movie hit me!! Actually I take that back I was in the shower. I've only told 1 maybe 2 ppl out this idea, lol.... it's just that good, to me anywayz... So i'm like, I need to write a screenplay. I think i missed my big shot to, cuz the writers going on strike probably was my ticket to success, but hey I didn't follow that thought right away... I'm still writing, but some of my new experiences have kind of altered the story... I've been doing alot of research and just reading literature on screenplays, how they're written and the whole hollywood process in general. I'll get her done though... plus another idea hit me not too long ago, I can't remember it though lol, I think I might end up as a writer..
So that was that, so now, same kind of situation, i'm just chillin, sittin around, and it hit me.... I want to start a corporation. Basically a company that has many different lines of businesses under it. So i'll use a current one out there as an example, hmm, Walt Disney world... perfect example, Fortune 500 company... many different lines of business... ABC, ESPN, Resort, theme parks, merchandise... lot's of companies u wouldn't even have thought, they're all run individually, but still owned by Disney... something similiar, Who knows, maybe it'll get to Disney status! prob after i'm gone...
So this next one actually happen earlier today while I was at work.... 2 of em actually...
I was watchin BET, well it was on in the break room... and 106 & Park was on, So I was thinkin about how and why I do not consider myself a viewer of this network... and it hit me, I should start my own network... haven't picked out a name, but I'm thinkin a truly Black station, one that displays Blacks in a positive image and not full of stereotypes, and also one that informs... If someone wants to steal this idea Be My Guest!! I mean hey, maybe some of these thing hit me just because God knows i'm not afraid to put it out there! But yea, momma always told me, if ya want something done right, ya gotta do it yourself...
and the second one that hit me was not too long after. I was thinking about a prior blog i'd written about reading and the black culture, and I thought to myself, hmm... maybe I should open up my own school... but then I thought, nah that can be for later when i'm in my 50's or somethin like that... lol
But as u can see, my dreams are REALLY big... but in my mind they seem inevitable... it's something I feel in my heart I can accomplish and through God's grace... it WILL be done.... I've always had the Do it big mentality and my Dreams are no different, I'm the type of person that wants to own a chain of stores rather than just a store in a chain....
but that's just me.... What are you're Dreams?
... So I was on the phone right, and you know I'm just talkin, chit-chattin if you will and me and this person got on the subject of school and future careers; and I was like, there's a lot of things that I want to do. So, she was like, well what are they. I was stuck, then it hit me... I've never really talked out loud about all the things in my head that I want to do with my life. These things are still fairly new, but nonetheless I've never talked about them. So when she asked me that, I found myself not really being able to explain what it was. I mean sure, it makes total sense in my head, but when I said it out loud it was as if I wasn't confident in it or maybe even felt foolish. Like a little kid wanting to be a superhero, or an astronaut, or policeman... As if my dreams are too big!! So I've decided to take the first step and just get them all out of me. Not quite out loud, but out there in some form, I mean as I've already learned, my words can be very powerful... So here goes...
Well, let's start way back in High School,
I was destined to be an NBA star... :) just one problem, I was in the marching band throughout highschool, got to college, was like ooo i'll walk on. Took one look at the team, and headed for the library.... lol Hey, I could still pursue it, but prob very unlikely.... ok that's off my chest, lol
Nowadays, I don't feel like the things that pop into my head are my thoughts alone... I feel like there's someone telling me these things and ok let's back up, I feel like God is telling me all the things he wants me to do with my life, and basically it's up to me whether they get done or not...
Sounds weird? yes, no, maybe? Are u currently following your dreams? If so, did you hear the same voice? Let me know, cuz i'm tryin to figure this one out, :)
So what are they?
Well one day, I was sittin around thinkin and stuff and this idea for a movie hit me!! Actually I take that back I was in the shower. I've only told 1 maybe 2 ppl out this idea, lol.... it's just that good, to me anywayz... So i'm like, I need to write a screenplay. I think i missed my big shot to, cuz the writers going on strike probably was my ticket to success, but hey I didn't follow that thought right away... I'm still writing, but some of my new experiences have kind of altered the story... I've been doing alot of research and just reading literature on screenplays, how they're written and the whole hollywood process in general. I'll get her done though... plus another idea hit me not too long ago, I can't remember it though lol, I think I might end up as a writer..
So that was that, so now, same kind of situation, i'm just chillin, sittin around, and it hit me.... I want to start a corporation. Basically a company that has many different lines of businesses under it. So i'll use a current one out there as an example, hmm, Walt Disney world... perfect example, Fortune 500 company... many different lines of business... ABC, ESPN, Resort, theme parks, merchandise... lot's of companies u wouldn't even have thought, they're all run individually, but still owned by Disney... something similiar, Who knows, maybe it'll get to Disney status! prob after i'm gone...
So this next one actually happen earlier today while I was at work.... 2 of em actually...
I was watchin BET, well it was on in the break room... and 106 & Park was on, So I was thinkin about how and why I do not consider myself a viewer of this network... and it hit me, I should start my own network... haven't picked out a name, but I'm thinkin a truly Black station, one that displays Blacks in a positive image and not full of stereotypes, and also one that informs... If someone wants to steal this idea Be My Guest!! I mean hey, maybe some of these thing hit me just because God knows i'm not afraid to put it out there! But yea, momma always told me, if ya want something done right, ya gotta do it yourself...
and the second one that hit me was not too long after. I was thinking about a prior blog i'd written about reading and the black culture, and I thought to myself, hmm... maybe I should open up my own school... but then I thought, nah that can be for later when i'm in my 50's or somethin like that... lol
But as u can see, my dreams are REALLY big... but in my mind they seem inevitable... it's something I feel in my heart I can accomplish and through God's grace... it WILL be done.... I've always had the Do it big mentality and my Dreams are no different, I'm the type of person that wants to own a chain of stores rather than just a store in a chain....
but that's just me.... What are you're Dreams?
Monday, July 21, 2008
Reading and the Black Culture
Ok let's talk,
We all, well alot of us have heard the statement, "if you want to hide something from a black person put it in a book because they'll never look there." That's just a disgrace. What seems to be the problem? Now I have to beat up on myself in this one because I have been known in to past to say I hate reading... I just won't read. Well my views on reading have been changing for the better. In the past, I've always associated reading with words like, boring, studious, nerdy, unexciting, just plain ole' not good associations. How this occurred? couldn't tell ya. However, I've come to understand how powerful a simple book can be, even how powerful my own words can be. This led to a lot of writing on my part. I'm not just writing to entertain myself, but in doing so I actually become better and better at it. It's also really therapeutic!
Ok that's just me, what about the rest of my race. Why the stigma? Is it true? What's the problem?
Well I did a little research and found that a study was done in 1992 that tested the reading scores of 12 graders. The study was conducted up until 2005 and shows a trend of decline over these years. This includes all races. However, the discrepancy between the races was also tested and not only was the black race on the decline, but started at a lower score as well. You can see this for yourself here http://nces.ed.gov/ssbr/pages/reading0407.asp?IndID=39
Come on nah, not only did the Hispanic population take the number 2 minority spot, but they also read better than us too! Actually, the white population tested showed the most decline up to 2005 while the other races really remained the same and didn't really change so that does say that it isn't all bad, but it needs to rise.
Could this be the problem be that blacks are not at a proficient reading level and are discouraged from doing so? Maybe if we did something to better our youth's reading ability, reading would become a common pastime and maybe then the power that we have will begin to rise.
I think we all need to go watch that movie Matilda about 50 times and see just how strong our minds can be.
Well, that's all I have for now... It's past my bedtime! I gotta long day tomorrow!
Oh, just a side note... There's a book written by Hill Harper called Letters to a Young Sister, I hear that it's a good read... he also has one entitled Letters to a Young Brother. I will be getting my copy soon.... So should you!
Maybe I'll form a book club, we need more of those don't ya think, If not, this message did not serve its purpose at all.
Goodnight,
We all, well alot of us have heard the statement, "if you want to hide something from a black person put it in a book because they'll never look there." That's just a disgrace. What seems to be the problem? Now I have to beat up on myself in this one because I have been known in to past to say I hate reading... I just won't read. Well my views on reading have been changing for the better. In the past, I've always associated reading with words like, boring, studious, nerdy, unexciting, just plain ole' not good associations. How this occurred? couldn't tell ya. However, I've come to understand how powerful a simple book can be, even how powerful my own words can be. This led to a lot of writing on my part. I'm not just writing to entertain myself, but in doing so I actually become better and better at it. It's also really therapeutic!
Ok that's just me, what about the rest of my race. Why the stigma? Is it true? What's the problem?
Well I did a little research and found that a study was done in 1992 that tested the reading scores of 12 graders. The study was conducted up until 2005 and shows a trend of decline over these years. This includes all races. However, the discrepancy between the races was also tested and not only was the black race on the decline, but started at a lower score as well. You can see this for yourself here http://nces.ed.gov/ssbr/pages/reading0407.asp?IndID=39
Come on nah, not only did the Hispanic population take the number 2 minority spot, but they also read better than us too! Actually, the white population tested showed the most decline up to 2005 while the other races really remained the same and didn't really change so that does say that it isn't all bad, but it needs to rise.
Could this be the problem be that blacks are not at a proficient reading level and are discouraged from doing so? Maybe if we did something to better our youth's reading ability, reading would become a common pastime and maybe then the power that we have will begin to rise.
I think we all need to go watch that movie Matilda about 50 times and see just how strong our minds can be.
Well, that's all I have for now... It's past my bedtime! I gotta long day tomorrow!
Oh, just a side note... There's a book written by Hill Harper called Letters to a Young Sister, I hear that it's a good read... he also has one entitled Letters to a Young Brother. I will be getting my copy soon.... So should you!
Maybe I'll form a book club, we need more of those don't ya think, If not, this message did not serve its purpose at all.
Goodnight,
Relationship Theory
Ok, I know i said maybe, but I've decided I will... (besides ppl like the juicy stuff anyway)
Here's my latest theory on relationships:
If it starts too fast, it will end even faster....
Think about that,
I was conversing with a close personal friend and she so eloquently said the same thing in her own words. I was like, hmm that was deep.
Lets talk,
So you meet someone and there's a mutual interest. You go on a couple of dates and hit it off very well. Let's stop here, This means absolutely nothing! (yes I said it)
Children get new Xmas toys every year, if they really loved the ones the year before there would be no need for new ones every year would there.... It's just something new and exciting in your life. Granted those initial dates do tell whether or not you should continue to build something, but let's not jump the gun. Now where many relationships go wrong is exactly at this point. This is the point where many relationships start. Unfortunately the representatives of people often do not remain for the duration of the relationship. Usually around the time when they depart is when the relationship is about to come to an end.
I'll call this part, meeting the truth. It's funny how people are shocked to meet the true person they're dating. "My how you've changed" may be a phrase used...
So you meet your true partner and you hate them, and you end up alone again. Then you repeat the cycle again, that's the killer part. You know why many of the major corporations are successful? They are good at producing a consistent product and can perform successful things over and over again. You know why you're still single? cuz you're good at the cycle that I just described... time to try a new one!
Ok now that I've tore you down, it's time to build you back up... can't just leave ya damaged.
Here's what ya do:
You meet someone you like, great job....
You have a mutual likeness for each, great
Now all you need to do is begin dating, and find out everything you can during this dating period and after that you can decide whether or not you want to proceed to the next step or not.
Now don't get me wrong, there are many many many other factors that contribute to this cycle, but I think one of the major sources is the two parties just getting something other than what they expected.
But this is just my theory, what do you think?
Here's my latest theory on relationships:
If it starts too fast, it will end even faster....
Think about that,
I was conversing with a close personal friend and she so eloquently said the same thing in her own words. I was like, hmm that was deep.
Lets talk,
So you meet someone and there's a mutual interest. You go on a couple of dates and hit it off very well. Let's stop here, This means absolutely nothing! (yes I said it)
Children get new Xmas toys every year, if they really loved the ones the year before there would be no need for new ones every year would there.... It's just something new and exciting in your life. Granted those initial dates do tell whether or not you should continue to build something, but let's not jump the gun. Now where many relationships go wrong is exactly at this point. This is the point where many relationships start. Unfortunately the representatives of people often do not remain for the duration of the relationship. Usually around the time when they depart is when the relationship is about to come to an end.
I'll call this part, meeting the truth. It's funny how people are shocked to meet the true person they're dating. "My how you've changed" may be a phrase used...
So you meet your true partner and you hate them, and you end up alone again. Then you repeat the cycle again, that's the killer part. You know why many of the major corporations are successful? They are good at producing a consistent product and can perform successful things over and over again. You know why you're still single? cuz you're good at the cycle that I just described... time to try a new one!
Ok now that I've tore you down, it's time to build you back up... can't just leave ya damaged.
Here's what ya do:
You meet someone you like, great job....
You have a mutual likeness for each, great
Now all you need to do is begin dating, and find out everything you can during this dating period and after that you can decide whether or not you want to proceed to the next step or not.
Now don't get me wrong, there are many many many other factors that contribute to this cycle, but I think one of the major sources is the two parties just getting something other than what they expected.
But this is just my theory, what do you think?
Saturday, July 19, 2008
A Brief Message,
Hello folks,
It's been a minute since I wrote here. Sorry, I've been traveling the U.S.A!! I think i'm become a frequent flyer, lol....
Well this will be a brief one, I have a lot to say and little time, because it's 1 am and i work for 9:15 am, yea I need to be sleep. However, I had so much in my head that I had to at least get an outline so I won't forget... so here's some topics I'll be talkin about in the upcoming week...
-The closeness and importance of family
-Reading & the Black Culture
-and many more.... lol I'm forgetting already
maybe relationships... or maybe not, might get a little to real! (starting too fast, ending even faster)
In other news, if you're reading this I'd like to thank you for your time, and also i'd like to invite you to subscribe to my blog. There should be a link around here somewhere, but if not you can find it at twinsinc.blogspot.com also spread the word.. I'm interest in feedback and also engaging in topics that aren't necessarily talked about everyday. Hopefully I can make a difference in someone's life and promote a change for the better...
It's been a minute since I wrote here. Sorry, I've been traveling the U.S.A!! I think i'm become a frequent flyer, lol....
Well this will be a brief one, I have a lot to say and little time, because it's 1 am and i work for 9:15 am, yea I need to be sleep. However, I had so much in my head that I had to at least get an outline so I won't forget... so here's some topics I'll be talkin about in the upcoming week...
-The closeness and importance of family
-Reading & the Black Culture
-and many more.... lol I'm forgetting already
maybe relationships... or maybe not, might get a little to real! (starting too fast, ending even faster)
In other news, if you're reading this I'd like to thank you for your time, and also i'd like to invite you to subscribe to my blog. There should be a link around here somewhere, but if not you can find it at twinsinc.blogspot.com also spread the word.. I'm interest in feedback and also engaging in topics that aren't necessarily talked about everyday. Hopefully I can make a difference in someone's life and promote a change for the better...
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Let's talk politics?
Now I usually don't talk about politics, not cause i'm not into it... just boring! lol but I do catch the juicy stuff... and I just had to speak on this. The following is an article that basically states how Bill Clinton said that Obama will have to " kiss his ass" to get his support... Which further shows that the Clintons pretty much have their own agenda and can careless what the party wants, but wants the party to do what they want... I'm disappointed cuz I liked the Clintons... but guess I was a victim of the whole keep your enemies close bit.... take a look at this article... it's reported from a British paper,
oh and btw, thanks to Tamika for sharing this info with me,
By Pamela Gentry, Senior Political Producer
June 30, 2008 – If there’s any truth to a report from the British newspaper The Telegraph, former President Bill Clinton is a long way from bumping fists with Barack Obama. In fact, the paper reports, Clinton is still so infuriated with the Illinois senator for the nastiness that surfaced during the primary campaign that he said Obama will “have to kiss his ass” to get his support for the presidency.
According to the newspaper, a friend of the former president said: “He’s been angry for a while. But everyone thought he would get over it. He hasn’t. I’ve spoken to a couple of people who he’s been in contact with and he is mad as hell. He’s saying he’s not going to reach out, that Obama has to come to him. One person told me that Bill said Obama would have to quote kiss my ass close quote, if he wants his support. “
It’s common knowledge that Clinton is still angry that Obama, a relative newcomer to national politics, defeated his wife for the Democratic nomination, and the former president blames Obama for the beating his own rep took during the primary. Many African Americans, who once revered Bill Clinton as a friend of Blacks, have since described him as racist following comments linking Obama to the Rev. Jesse Jackson and references to Obama living a “fairytale.”
Last weekend, Bill Clinton was conspicuously absent from the Unity, N.H., lovefest between Obama and the former first lady, which raised questions about the former president’s feelings about the presumed nominee.
The Telegraph source is quoted as telling the former president, “You can’t talk like that about Obama – he’s the nominee of your party, not some house boy you can order around.”
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
ok let's talk some more; Titles Gone Bad
Ok, I just have a lot on my mind tonight,
Let's talk about relationships,
So.............. let's talk in hypothetical.......
Well scratch that, what is it with this psychological aspect of the "title". I often hear alot of stories about people dating and it goes soooo well and they end up putting a title on the relationship and boom, downhill from there. Hmm, let's think about it, wait let's flip that, then you have those where one party is, well both parties are interested, but.... always that but, lol... one person is just getting over someone or not ready or whatever the case may be... however they are still willing to just chill, have fun, hang out talk, you know do all the same things, just without being exclusive... ok, now let's think.... What actually changes in the relationship, besides the title??? I mean, you could say the whole seeing other people thing would stop, but if the couple really is into each other neither of them prob were seeing other people anyhow... So again, what changes besides the title? Somebody tell me, cuz it's all psychological to me, through a title on it and it goes wrong! Is it that more is expected once that title is issued... if that's the case then that's just a classic set up for failure then. How can you expect more just all of a sudden, If you're not getting all you expect out of a relationship before the title, 10 times out of 10, it's not gonna change once a title is placed.... doesn't work like that.... so ppl, before you put out that title, please make sure you have everything you expect. and maybe, just maybe we can change the stigma that goes along with Titles killing relationships!
goodnight,
Let's talk about relationships,
So.............. let's talk in hypothetical.......
Well scratch that, what is it with this psychological aspect of the "title". I often hear alot of stories about people dating and it goes soooo well and they end up putting a title on the relationship and boom, downhill from there. Hmm, let's think about it, wait let's flip that, then you have those where one party is, well both parties are interested, but.... always that but, lol... one person is just getting over someone or not ready or whatever the case may be... however they are still willing to just chill, have fun, hang out talk, you know do all the same things, just without being exclusive... ok, now let's think.... What actually changes in the relationship, besides the title??? I mean, you could say the whole seeing other people thing would stop, but if the couple really is into each other neither of them prob were seeing other people anyhow... So again, what changes besides the title? Somebody tell me, cuz it's all psychological to me, through a title on it and it goes wrong! Is it that more is expected once that title is issued... if that's the case then that's just a classic set up for failure then. How can you expect more just all of a sudden, If you're not getting all you expect out of a relationship before the title, 10 times out of 10, it's not gonna change once a title is placed.... doesn't work like that.... so ppl, before you put out that title, please make sure you have everything you expect. and maybe, just maybe we can change the stigma that goes along with Titles killing relationships!
goodnight,
Mastermind
So in the words of Lil Wayne "I mastermind, then go after mine"
These words are so true. Anything in life, well any thing worth having needs to be carefully planned and then those plans must be put into action. Ok, Talton what are you ranting about now? Well I'll tell ya,
Basically, I'm about to do just what that quote says, mastermind then go after mine... I know what I want now, and everything is in place. However, one situation has bad timing, but this is something I really can't let go wrong. Hopefully if everything goes to plan, everything will fall into place. So the trick now is to set the cards up to where everything will fall in place. For all you spades players just think of it as waiting for that right time to just unleash those spades after careful planning!
One of the hardest lessons for me, which is getting pounded into me since I've been in Florida, is that nothing just comes to you or is just handed to you. You gotta work for it or put in work. I'm not gonna even lie, in my lifetime i've been given alot of things and have been blessed to be in that position. There were things that I did have to work for, but still I don't think I fully grasped that lesson. Well, after 6 months of taking this beating it's sinkin in, lol... And guess what, I'm ready. I know exactly what I want, and I'm gon mastermind and then go after mind! Trust,
These words are so true. Anything in life, well any thing worth having needs to be carefully planned and then those plans must be put into action. Ok, Talton what are you ranting about now? Well I'll tell ya,
Basically, I'm about to do just what that quote says, mastermind then go after mine... I know what I want now, and everything is in place. However, one situation has bad timing, but this is something I really can't let go wrong. Hopefully if everything goes to plan, everything will fall into place. So the trick now is to set the cards up to where everything will fall in place. For all you spades players just think of it as waiting for that right time to just unleash those spades after careful planning!
One of the hardest lessons for me, which is getting pounded into me since I've been in Florida, is that nothing just comes to you or is just handed to you. You gotta work for it or put in work. I'm not gonna even lie, in my lifetime i've been given alot of things and have been blessed to be in that position. There were things that I did have to work for, but still I don't think I fully grasped that lesson. Well, after 6 months of taking this beating it's sinkin in, lol... And guess what, I'm ready. I know exactly what I want, and I'm gon mastermind and then go after mind! Trust,
Mastermind.... interrupted
Yeah, so um... well excuse me, Hi folks!
I was about to write on the topic of this which is Mastermind, but another issue has interrupted the original thought. So, i've decided to speak on this BET situation...
BET, Black Entertainment Television, so they call it. My question is, why does Black Entertainment have to consist of only music videos and reality shows. Yea you might catch and old Wayan's Bros. or somethin, but come on nah, be real.
Now yes, I do acknowledge that it's an Entertainment station and not really is meant to be informative, but is music the only form of entertainment we have, and is it so wrong to have a form of entertainment that's informative. I mean look at Comedy Central, a station based on parody, they have that show called the Colbert Report i think it is, a big hit, quite funny actually... but the information is true. So even if you don't watch the CNN's and the fox news and stuff, just from watching a show on comedy central, you can still kinda know what's going on.
Another thing i don't like is the fact that BET is even owned by a Black person, so basically we're not even choosing what should entertain us, well excuse me, we are by boosting the ratings of the current entertainment...
That's just something I had to speak on,
now back to regular broadcasting... lol
I was about to write on the topic of this which is Mastermind, but another issue has interrupted the original thought. So, i've decided to speak on this BET situation...
BET, Black Entertainment Television, so they call it. My question is, why does Black Entertainment have to consist of only music videos and reality shows. Yea you might catch and old Wayan's Bros. or somethin, but come on nah, be real.
Now yes, I do acknowledge that it's an Entertainment station and not really is meant to be informative, but is music the only form of entertainment we have, and is it so wrong to have a form of entertainment that's informative. I mean look at Comedy Central, a station based on parody, they have that show called the Colbert Report i think it is, a big hit, quite funny actually... but the information is true. So even if you don't watch the CNN's and the fox news and stuff, just from watching a show on comedy central, you can still kinda know what's going on.
Another thing i don't like is the fact that BET is even owned by a Black person, so basically we're not even choosing what should entertain us, well excuse me, we are by boosting the ratings of the current entertainment...
That's just something I had to speak on,
now back to regular broadcasting... lol
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Special Guest: Tyler Perry
Hey guys, well i thought i'd spice things up a little, We have a special guest here on Real Talk today... Well actually I read this and just had to share it with everyone because it touched me and hopefully it will touch others if I pass it on... who knows, maybe God is using me to get this to you! The following is a message from Tyler Perry's website I believe... (none of the following comes from me)
Well without futher ado, I'll hand the floor over to Tyler........
Something happened to me yesterday that I had to share with you.
I was dealing with some foolishness, as we all do from time to time, and I
was about to get frustrated and start to complain--but before I could get
a negative word out, I caught it. It’s always better to bless than to
curse. So I decided to think about all of the blessings in my life. I went
for a ride over to 47 Twenty Fifth Street, Apartment 8 here in Atlanta.
This was my last apartment; right after being homeless. I lived in it
just 10 short years ago.
When I got there I saw that they were going to be tearing it down soon. I
asked the new developer if I could get in and take some pictures (I have
to show you these pictures). I wasn’t prepared for what happened when I
went in. I opened the door and a flood of memories came back to me. The
apartment is one room, a bathroom and a wall of cabinets that was the
kitchen. I so remember sitting in this place and being so hungry and so
unhappy and wondering what my life was worth. Asking questions like,
“Should I go on living?” Mad at the world and still behind in the rent. To
think that it was only 10 years ago blew my mind. Needless to say, I
couldn’t hold it any longer. I sat on the edge of the tub and the tears
would not stop.
I remember back then reaching out and nobody would help me. No friend, no
family--nobody. I called and asked one friend of mine for $20 so that I
could have food for the week. He told me that he was coming to bring it,
but it took him six days. I had all of these hopes and dreams but all I
could see were those four walls. All I could see was what was right in
front of me. Sometimes you start looking at your immediate and forget
about the inevitable (if you believe).
I didn’t know how I was going to get there, but something in me would keep
telling me, “You’re going to make it…hold on!” If you’re hearing that
voice then listen to it. THAT’S GOD. Remembering all of this really shook
me up. I got so sad but right away I realized where God has brought me
from and then I got so happy. And the thing that touched me the most was
that in all of that despair and hopelessness, I thought that I was alone,
but it was clear to me that GOD WAS THERE EVEN THEN!!! I wish that you
could feel what I’m feeling right now. I didn’t know it at the time but
now, looking back, I see that He was there all the time.
I know that some of you are tired of hearing this stuff from me, but there
are others who need it like they’ve never needed it before. So please,
bear with me (smile). Listen to me. Every person that I thought would
help me turned their back on me. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not mad or
bitter. I’m grateful. I have learned since then that sometimes God will
close every door around you so that you will have to look at Him and Him
alone to supply all of your needs. I wish that I could bring every one of
you into this apartment and show you the miracles that God can and is
willing to do for anyone who believes.
God does not require us to be perfect for him to bless us. He rains
[blessings] on the just as well as the unjust. But He does require faith
for everything from salvation to miracles. I know that these are trying
times, but LOOK to GOD--Oh my, LOOK to GOD!! And HOLD ON!!! HOLD ON!! KEEP
MOVING…just keep moving.
Here are the pictures: http://tylerperry.com/pics
Tyler
I'd like to thank my special guest Tyler Perry, even though he doesn't know he was here, lol.... but he has been very blessed, and has shared his blessing with millions of people through his work and I greatly respect him for that. I hope to also one day be in the position to do the same. That voice he spoke of that said, "you're gonna make it" is the same one I hear all the time. Just as he didn't, I have no idea how! but i'm gonna keep on living and striving to be the best Talton I can be.
Well without futher ado, I'll hand the floor over to Tyler........
Something happened to me yesterday that I had to share with you.
I was dealing with some foolishness, as we all do from time to time, and I
was about to get frustrated and start to complain--but before I could get
a negative word out, I caught it. It’s always better to bless than to
curse. So I decided to think about all of the blessings in my life. I went
for a ride over to 47 Twenty Fifth Street, Apartment 8 here in Atlanta.
This was my last apartment; right after being homeless. I lived in it
just 10 short years ago.
When I got there I saw that they were going to be tearing it down soon. I
asked the new developer if I could get in and take some pictures (I have
to show you these pictures). I wasn’t prepared for what happened when I
went in. I opened the door and a flood of memories came back to me. The
apartment is one room, a bathroom and a wall of cabinets that was the
kitchen. I so remember sitting in this place and being so hungry and so
unhappy and wondering what my life was worth. Asking questions like,
“Should I go on living?” Mad at the world and still behind in the rent. To
think that it was only 10 years ago blew my mind. Needless to say, I
couldn’t hold it any longer. I sat on the edge of the tub and the tears
would not stop.
I remember back then reaching out and nobody would help me. No friend, no
family--nobody. I called and asked one friend of mine for $20 so that I
could have food for the week. He told me that he was coming to bring it,
but it took him six days. I had all of these hopes and dreams but all I
could see were those four walls. All I could see was what was right in
front of me. Sometimes you start looking at your immediate and forget
about the inevitable (if you believe).
I didn’t know how I was going to get there, but something in me would keep
telling me, “You’re going to make it…hold on!” If you’re hearing that
voice then listen to it. THAT’S GOD. Remembering all of this really shook
me up. I got so sad but right away I realized where God has brought me
from and then I got so happy. And the thing that touched me the most was
that in all of that despair and hopelessness, I thought that I was alone,
but it was clear to me that GOD WAS THERE EVEN THEN!!! I wish that you
could feel what I’m feeling right now. I didn’t know it at the time but
now, looking back, I see that He was there all the time.
I know that some of you are tired of hearing this stuff from me, but there
are others who need it like they’ve never needed it before. So please,
bear with me (smile). Listen to me. Every person that I thought would
help me turned their back on me. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not mad or
bitter. I’m grateful. I have learned since then that sometimes God will
close every door around you so that you will have to look at Him and Him
alone to supply all of your needs. I wish that I could bring every one of
you into this apartment and show you the miracles that God can and is
willing to do for anyone who believes.
God does not require us to be perfect for him to bless us. He rains
[blessings] on the just as well as the unjust. But He does require faith
for everything from salvation to miracles. I know that these are trying
times, but LOOK to GOD--Oh my, LOOK to GOD!! And HOLD ON!!! HOLD ON!! KEEP
MOVING…just keep moving.
Here are the pictures: http://tylerperry.com/pics
Tyler
I'd like to thank my special guest Tyler Perry, even though he doesn't know he was here, lol.... but he has been very blessed, and has shared his blessing with millions of people through his work and I greatly respect him for that. I hope to also one day be in the position to do the same. That voice he spoke of that said, "you're gonna make it" is the same one I hear all the time. Just as he didn't, I have no idea how! but i'm gonna keep on living and striving to be the best Talton I can be.
A Nightly Journal,
yoooooooo!! what's up! not much to report tonight... just thought I'd write a lil somethin just cuz... last time I was missing her, well tonight it's not much different, but hey i've learned to cope... lol
i'm spending time with my closest friends that i've made here... just watchin Chappelle show, playing the Wii, laughin and shit... it's great. I really will miss these days, even though i'm about ready to depart. Well not just yet, I think August is perfect timing. Besides my mother as well as my twins' b-day is in August... gotta be there for them, especially my mom, she's the greatest. I have so much in store for her as well as the rest of my fam, they just don't know. I will be big one day, and they won't have to ever lift a finger once I'm done.... she's still on my mind, that's the second day in a row, ??? that's unusual, isn't it! we'll see lol,
Well I got talked into going into work early tomorrow, like around 12, ya that's early... lol I need to though cuz i only got 31 hrs, this week... not too good, but hey, got nothin else to do... I was supposed to write a resume, but didn't quite get to that.... I need to soon, cuz August will be here before i know it. I procrastinate too much!!!
Well goodnight, time for bed, Love you all!
i'm spending time with my closest friends that i've made here... just watchin Chappelle show, playing the Wii, laughin and shit... it's great. I really will miss these days, even though i'm about ready to depart. Well not just yet, I think August is perfect timing. Besides my mother as well as my twins' b-day is in August... gotta be there for them, especially my mom, she's the greatest. I have so much in store for her as well as the rest of my fam, they just don't know. I will be big one day, and they won't have to ever lift a finger once I'm done.... she's still on my mind, that's the second day in a row, ??? that's unusual, isn't it! we'll see lol,
Well I got talked into going into work early tomorrow, like around 12, ya that's early... lol I need to though cuz i only got 31 hrs, this week... not too good, but hey, got nothin else to do... I was supposed to write a resume, but didn't quite get to that.... I need to soon, cuz August will be here before i know it. I procrastinate too much!!!
Well goodnight, time for bed, Love you all!
Friday, June 20, 2008
I've been bitten
I wanna call her, text her, somethin' but I just can't!! I'm about to burst! I haven't felt this way in a long time. Maybe it's just a phase, who knows... I don't think it is. How many phases can you go through in a lifetime. Aren't those for teenagers who hate their parents? Ah well, only time will tell us the answer. All I can do now is produce this and look back on it years from now and either say I told ya so, or what the hell was I thinking! lol
These are just inner thoughts, but for some reason I felt the need to get them out of me. When I could have my way I had to find another way, and this was the best avenue... hmm, who would have ever thunk it? Besides, I hating writing. But as I've always said, my bestest friends are the ones whom I've had a period of hate, or should I say dislike for... Well that's kinda harsh, let's just say they got on my damn nerves! Let's take my best friend of all, my other half, the female version of me, the dancer, my sister.... I remember wanting to disown her ass... lol I guess the more I wanted you gone and the more you stayed the closer we got... So to all of the ones I call friend, thanks for stickin it out and gettin on my nerves! lol
Back to......... oops almost gave it away, There's a little thing called confidentiality that I almost broke. Besides lots of eyes may find this, I can't control that.... well technically I could, but I've never been one to hold my tongue. Imma say what I gotta say like it or not, and always stand behind it. If I'm wrong I admit it, either way I go on with life... ppl dwell to much on stupid shit. If I have an issue with you, I'll just tell you, hopefully we can come to an understanding... either way I'm not gon' change how I'd normally act, we still cool regardless unless you just have no care or concern whatsoever. oh but, I was talkin about her.... I just..... I wish I could..... :) ??? i'm speechless, which is silly cuz I'm typing. You know how when you're thinking, but you can still hear yourself talking in your head? or am I the only one? maybe not yourself, but you hear the words. Is it correct to say your hear your thoughts? hmm, makes you wonder.... but some how I miss her, just want to hear her voice... see her smile... Can't stop thinking, I've been bitten, but shhhh..... that's b/w you and me......
whew! i feel better now, that should get me through the night, lol
These are just inner thoughts, but for some reason I felt the need to get them out of me. When I could have my way I had to find another way, and this was the best avenue... hmm, who would have ever thunk it? Besides, I hating writing. But as I've always said, my bestest friends are the ones whom I've had a period of hate, or should I say dislike for... Well that's kinda harsh, let's just say they got on my damn nerves! Let's take my best friend of all, my other half, the female version of me, the dancer, my sister.... I remember wanting to disown her ass... lol I guess the more I wanted you gone and the more you stayed the closer we got... So to all of the ones I call friend, thanks for stickin it out and gettin on my nerves! lol
Back to......... oops almost gave it away, There's a little thing called confidentiality that I almost broke. Besides lots of eyes may find this, I can't control that.... well technically I could, but I've never been one to hold my tongue. Imma say what I gotta say like it or not, and always stand behind it. If I'm wrong I admit it, either way I go on with life... ppl dwell to much on stupid shit. If I have an issue with you, I'll just tell you, hopefully we can come to an understanding... either way I'm not gon' change how I'd normally act, we still cool regardless unless you just have no care or concern whatsoever. oh but, I was talkin about her.... I just..... I wish I could..... :) ??? i'm speechless, which is silly cuz I'm typing. You know how when you're thinking, but you can still hear yourself talking in your head? or am I the only one? maybe not yourself, but you hear the words. Is it correct to say your hear your thoughts? hmm, makes you wonder.... but some how I miss her, just want to hear her voice... see her smile... Can't stop thinking, I've been bitten, but shhhh..... that's b/w you and me......
whew! i feel better now, that should get me through the night, lol
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
How am I'm supposed to breath?
We all know we need our "air" to breath. Well why is it that our "air" seems like it runs out and makes it hard for us to breath? As far myself, I've had to adjust to my "air" and it's changes many a times. This last adjustment was big though. I mean, the "air" was just at a constant flow... it was great. I remember when I met it's quality and pureness.. it was almost like this "air" was especially made for me. However, the time came for me to leave the region in which this "air" was native to. I tried my best to bottle it and take it along, even tried to import it... but it became more and more scarce, until I was to the point where I couldn't breath again.... I'd only get enough to take a full breath and that had to last me until the next breath. It was hard, and getting worse... Finally, I stopped trying to breath and just breathed.... I wouldn't say a new "air", but just my own source of air.
If you take nothing else from this at least take this... Always remember, life will give as well as take things from you. You must love who you are and be confident in you because in the end, you're the one who has to be happy with you.
"Air" will always be there for you to breathe,
If you take nothing else from this at least take this... Always remember, life will give as well as take things from you. You must love who you are and be confident in you because in the end, you're the one who has to be happy with you.
"Air" will always be there for you to breathe,
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